Dinner or Training?

Assalamualaikum W.B.T and Hi.

It's been so long since my last view on my Roda Coklat Blog. I realized I'm not so active writing a post as before, maybe since I stop writing my diary while in the meantime, I got Instagram. Hahaha. But today, here I am. Crawling back to my Roda Coklat blog with my messy mind. I can't bear alone in this thoughts. But I don't have someone to tell what's going on my mind either which not important and may sound irrelevent to be confused about. Thank god, I'm much comfortable in expressing myself through writing. Well, I'm not good in having conversation and speaker. I can be running out an idea to continue the conversation and I think I'm a boring person to talk to. Some rather look on their phone as I talking, honestly, that's broke my confidence to speaking longer. Ok, enough with the flowery introduction.^^

Last week, an announce had been made in our group class's whatsapp. There will be a dinner for PPK Pembuatan in two weeks. I bet it will be held on Saturday night, as common dinner night time would be held. I would love to go to the dinner. However, something was bothering me. Saturday night? Isn't that Taekwondo training class also on saturday night? I miss meeting my friends from the taekwondo class. However, this dinner will be my last dinner with PPKP. 

Well, I firstly joined last year PPKP dinner and I end up sitting at a table with my seniors because I didn't find and recognized my housemate during entering the hall. Although, I'm the only girl in that table, lucky, I know some of the seniors, some of them were my Fencing Club members and some I know during the MASUM  while the others are their friends. We get along just fine, and I fine with that. Maybe it would happen naturally to those who do sport activities together, they can just be sporting. Since in the Fencing Club, we often do some fun game together in group. I guess that's why I comfortable being around them.

The Taekwondo training class, it's not like I'm taking any belt upgrading this semester. I just enjoy doing the training with others members which quite good together. Kind of activities that releasing the study burdens on my shoulder even for a moment. This semester, the members are very sporting. I'm also meeting friends from our SUKIPT team. Memories~ At the meantime, I'm getting know some new friends too. Oh ya, most of them are my junior. Well, I ain't getting any younger, right? Hahaha. It's hard to meet friends around my age.

Today, was the last register name for the PPKP dinner, and I just din't take any action. As the time passing by, I relieved. I don't have to choose anymore. By the way, just a point from my view, I think, even if it makes me tired, I might just happier joining the Taekwondo training than joining the dinner. Maybe the presence of some precious members that make me happy? I think so too. Hahaha. Even though, I just know them from last semester in those short period of time, I'm more comfortable being around them. 

There something come to my mind as I was trying to figure out which one should I join,

"I should do the one that make me happy the most, 

the place that I should be is the place where my heart want to be presence."

Angau Story (Part 1)

Assalamualaikum Cintaa..

Hahahahak... asi ka intro begitu?? Lantak ar.. hahahaha

Starting from a few days ago, I'm having toothache due to my wisdom tooth. Despite all the pains, I received a lot of love and motivational words from my family and friends. Furthermore, I happen to meet my crush.. plural.. a few of them actually.. while several of them, are already belong to someone.. hahahaha, well, good for them.... anyways, yes, I met them either during my way to go to class, go to lunch, perform some event.. Things just happen that way, and I'm happy that I met them. hahaha

So, I'm coming soon to be 25 years old this year. Yet, I am single which also known as silent lover. However, I guess in this journey to 25 years old, I just let it go. Even, all these crush? Nothing so serious. After the 5 years of friendzone, moved on, I might just say, I not going to commit any crush on someone with seriously. Even I having a crush, I'm just go with the flow, because at the end, I know that, things would be end soon or later. So, just having fun with my life.

Somehow, when I starting to have crush on someone, unwanted the felt of jealousy is coming along. Lol hahaha. To end the jealousy thing, I need to stop having crush on him. So, that is the complexity in me. The safe way, I did was, just ignore. Even ignoring the facts that I like him. hahahaha.. Maybe this is why, I didn't say that I love him, because I'm not a lover. I just a girl who like people randomly.

To be continue...

Which One Better...

Assalamualaikum W.B.T. and Hi.

Alhamdulillah, still breathing up until this moment in January 2017. I had been quite busying ever since my semester 7 at UniMAP had started. My last paper for semester 7 was on 10 January 2017 and I went back home at Sabah on 14 January 2017. It's been a while, I haven't update my blog with my life stories. I guess, I was too busy living my life in the real life then. 

My love life was stirred up at the beginning of the semester, but then, I guess, I was too busy, got caught with endless of task with project and playing games; just to add some fun, until I decided to learn to let those feeling go off from me. However, at the end, I felt empty and lonely as the night goes deepen. There is nothing that I could have done to get rid those get me in the silent dark of nights. As the I awake, the routine goes on, I forget and try to be alive, then back home on the blue steel table, I stumbleupon my inner mood.

I decided to let go love out of my life for a while. Then, I realized there are a list of things that I loss together with love. I lose the feeling of seeing the beautiful of flower. How the flawless of whiteness on it's petals. 

There is no peace loving flowing through the sight of blue sky. The wind blew even telling me slowly, the lonely step I took, walking alone on the side road.

I kept playing my favorite song as if I might felt something that close to the feeling when I being with someone. But, nothing as same as the feeling I felt before. Somehow, I felt that how the lovely songs used to be so lovely were turned bitter. But I kept those playing anyways, so I won't hear the silent was screaming loudly and felt the loneliness lingering around me.

Up until this point, I wonder which one is better.

Be miserable in love or feeling empty and lonely...

Memory

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and Hai.

How are you? Fine. Thank you. hehehe

So this gonna be my short entry post. Its because I kind of lazy. Now, I am occupied with several subjects, Integrated Design Project, and Final Year Project. So, even when someone ask for my free time, I would say, 'Sorry, I'm busy.' Ok, that's a lie. Sorry, I lie. Don't be so serious bah. But sometimes, I really busy. Yes. So, its not totally a lie. It depends on the situation. I won't lie. Because I don't liars. Ok. Sometimes, I'm not busy but my mind is always busy. yes, that's right. Busy with the unrequited love, flashback memories, disappointments in life, happiness in life, success, failures, past, present, future, plan, anything. Hahahaha ok. behave.

So, let's see. I think it my best to write based on picture because I like pictures. Yes. Even when my friends went to holiday, all I ask is a picture. The most beautiful scene picture. It's beautiful. Have you ever feel happiness just by looking at beautiful pictures? have you? did you? I have. I did. hehehe

Date taken 5 May 2013. This my desk at home, kota belud.  

3 years ago. But recently, it doesn't appear as in the picture. Hahaha. This is when I was working as a cashier at GMART, KB. Trying to get a job with a diploma. Going through all the jobstreet web just to find a job vacancy. But who knows, I'm here now, at UniMAP in my final year, further study as product design engineering student. Well, I'm not that successful student, struggling to survive. hehehe. ok that 3 years ago..

Why talk about the past? Well, it's a part of my life, that shaped me today. 

I think I already did my best. It's okay. 

No need to blame anything.

*gambar si Haha juga la paling basar sana. hahaha*

First Roda Coklat Entry For 2016 Part 1

Assalamualaikum W.B.T. and Hai.

Hm.. Hai again. Lama sungguh nda menulis karangan personal di blog ni. Semenjak aku ada instagram lagi. Rasa awkward sekejap dengan blog sendiri. hahaha.

Before that, I had been wondering and curious during my freshie year as Product Design Engineering (PDE) student, why I don't find much about PDE student life in any blog. Now, I think I know the reason. There reason why I couldn't find a lot of entry about PDE student was, it because they are sooo busy with projects! hahaha. As for me, I'm already in semester 2, year 3. My close friend and those who follow up my blog entry would know, how long it been since I wrote my last entry and the gap between my entries. hehehe. A lot thing happen to me, family, love, crush, money, study, life, happy, sad, tears, jealous, angry, nasty, disappointment, feeling down,  hope, being used, being left, being ignore, failure, success. Which one you want to hear? hahahaha

As I entering my third year as PDE student, the first semester was hard, hard to me. I had to take 20 credit hours meanwhile my classmate only need to take around 17 credits hours. 

'Alaaa, beza 3 jam kredit je pun.' I guess this would crossed your mind. haaha

But for me, it was really hard and very challenging. 

Because of that 3 hour gap difference, I had class every friday, meanwhile almost all my classmate having their holiday starting from thursday evening, because they don't have class on Friday. 

Because of that 3 hour gap difference, I went home a bit late than the others. They would already sleeping after arrived at hostel, and have time to rest for any group project meeting during night. Meanwhile, I finished class on 6 pm or 7 pm, then quickly had to go the project meeting. 

Because of that 3 hour gap difference, I fall sleep easily at any blue chair that I can sat down at Pusat Pengajian Kejuruteraan Pembuatan. 

Because of that 3 hour gap difference, I walked to Dewan Kuliah for Statistic Class, 1 hour earlier, so that I can take time to nap before the class begin, because I really felt sleepy during statistic class. Statistic class is 2 times a week. One would end at 6 pm and the another one end at 7 pm, both of class would be held on Dewan Kuliah. 

Yes, my classmates already took Statistics during Year 2. It just me and a few friends that took statistics during semester 1 in third year. That was very hard and my messy year as student. If I not mistaken, we have 4 project, 4 lab subject which leads to several lab reports. 

For my feeling sake, I decided to do EPT 394 - Product Ergonomic and Safety project, alone. hahahaha. It supposed to have mock up and video. Actually I brought the trolley, just need a little adjustment but I refused to do it and decided not to submit it to the lecturer, I just sent him the video which I make ergonomic analysis by using CATIA. Luckly, I saw that Ergonomic application in the CATIA software. We never thought on how using the Ergonomic in the catia, but as I'm doing this project on my own, and I'm prepared to accept any consequences. I done the analysis and get the result, although I'm not sure that the correct way to set up the ergonomic analysis, but I made it. And that would be okay. Since we never learn about it, so I don't know whether it right or wrong. I just submit it. Alhamdulillah at final, I got C.

Talking about examination result, actually it wasn't a good result. A few days before study week, I got 

→ high fever

→unstable body temperature

→puke, 

→My head dizzy, even when I move my head on the pillow.

→My eyes were so sensitive to any kind of light. When I see the light, it cause me headache.

→As I sat down, I saw and feel my world spinning around.

I thought it was only for a moment, but it continue up until my second last exam paper. I just can watch my housemates study for their exam, while I was lying sick on my bed. My first paper, Applied Thermodynamics, I went to Klinik Pauh, got my medicine, late actually, but the lecturer let me in to take the exam. As I read the question, I just sighed. It took me 3 to 4 times reading the question just to understand what the first question wants. 'Ya Allah, this semester hit me pretty hard'.. I repeated myself saying that, as my tear would fall down, because I really can't answer the questions. Same goes to other subject.. I really try to study but, my head ache every time I force myself to read and to remember those. I call mother, telling her, that don't expect anything from me for this semester. I'm ruined. I remember her telling me, to just face these, with the tone that calming my worries. I'm sorry mother, I lacking a lot. Alhamdulillah, I slowly getting better when it comes to my second final exam. That's maybe I only got EPT 393 Eng. Product Design and EPT 394 Product Ergonomic and safety a passing grade. I told ya, other than this, my result are falling down. huhuhuhu

End of final exam, I slowly getting better and I was going for Taekwondo SUKIPT in Welter (62 kg - 67 kg) category  at Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, Skudai. As for my first training which started after the final exam finished, I almost puked outside the Thadza Futsal where we used to training Taekwondo. I nearly faint every training because my stamina was really low. When we jogging outside the Thadza Futsal, I always at the behind since I was the slowest in the team. I checked at the hospital with other team member, The doctor told me that I had low blood pressure. huhuhu. She gave me vitamins, medicine to increase the blood pressure, and energy drink. whoaaa.. Last semester was the first time, I received so much medicine. seriously.. Maybe because I was not really healthy, some of the members are appear to be slightly care or be sympathy to me. Ahaha, I don't know whether they were caring to me or just being sympathy to me. But at that moment, my worries gone a while, my moody mood were gone, my feeling down was vanishing away, I guess that what good teammates for, cheering up their teammates and caring to each other. There were too much to tell story about them, it wouldn't be enough in just one post, I want to tell more about them in other post. hehehe. So, to cut this post short, I got Silver medal in SUKIPT 2016 for Female Welter Category. I lose to Hamisah from MSU, she is a friend that I met during tournament at Langkawi 2014. hehehe.. Honestly, I was a little bit surprise to see her name at the game chart on the board.. hehehe. It was an honor to meet her in the game. Thanks for the memories Misa. :)

My Random Shape Felt Keychain

Assalamualaikum W.B.T.

Warning: Malay remix English remix Sabah slang.

*P*R*A*   *I*N*T*R*O*D*U*C*T*I*O*N*

Ehem... Batuk sikit mana la tau terkejut debu-debu kemalasan yang bersawang di blog ku ni. hahaha

Lama juga aku nda update blogku ni kan.. mau bilang sibuk, masa cuti semester hari tu, banyak juga masa kalau nak mengarang satu novel pun. Tapi yeah, that what happen, I didn't write once. It may due to the water problem that affect Cowboy Town or also known as Kota Belud. Memang sandi sungguh tiada air masa tu..dan salah satu kesan daripada ketiadaan air tu, masih berlarutan kesannya terhadap diriku ni. hm. Aku pasrah jak. Semoga cepat sembuh mal. Tapi disebabkan ketiadaan air tu juga lah, aku jumpa sungai Tambulion.. hahaha.. bertahun-tahun lamanya nda mandi sungai kan.. Ok, itu pra introduction. hahaha

*R*E*A*L*  *I*N*T*R*O*D*U*C*T*I*O*N*

Dulu aku pernah ikut kursus menjahit felt ni di Tuaran, Sabah, bersama-sama Ibu, Puen, dan juga wena. Ladies of the house lah kiranya ni. Course yang kami ambil berbeza but the basic I think the same. Aku ambil pakej buah-buahan dan angry bird. Jahit Lobak oren dan apple. ibu jahit cover buku. Puen jahit strawberry. the other tu aku tak ingat.. hehehe So, kalau nak kata beginner dalam bidang felt ni, nampak sangat menipunya tu ah. Then, aku rasa aku dalam tahap amateur la ni.. sebab nak kata aku terer buat shape2 felting ni memang tak. Aku buat yang simple-simple dan shape yang aku rasa nak buat ja. hehehe

Nak tengok ke some of this amateur handmade? hehehe

This is my first attempt.. Love Keychain.

Phone strap tu aku beli masa tengok-tengok kedai di Kangar sebelum balik bercuti. 

Comel je aku tengok.. suka hati .. hahaha.. Ok next!

Yang bulat tu aku nak buat macam emoji n smiley sebenarnya, tapi kain felt aku yg terhad, aku guna jak felt yang ada masa tu.. light pink hahaha.. mashmallow tu pulak, aku jumpa tutorial buat mashmallow plushie di youtube.. Nampak comel kan, tapi agak susah juga nak buat. hahaha. sebab aku tak notice mashmallow tu ada 3 part yang nak kena jahit bagi cantum.. Yang love tu, hah as you can see. macam tu jak lah..  hehehe

Ingat nak buat collection lah kunun ni. tapi terdetik pulak nak jual. So, aku suggest supaya wena offer pada kawan2nya di sekolah. And then, here we go.. Order starting to flow in... aku tak expect pun ada order.. aku ingat nak jual apa yang aku dah buat ja.. hahahaa. Dan aku flabbergasted bila kawan-kawan wena order shape-shape yang aku tak buat for the first time, contohnya bentuk awan, matahari, bunga, bintang. Hohoho. 

Some of the shape, I managed to make them such for the awan (cloud).

Bunga. Bintang. Yang shape Bintang, bunga, love dalam gambar ni semua order kawan-kawan wena. As I made these for children, I decided to use thread as the way to make all of them are possible to buy at price RM 1.5 - RM 2.00.

Random shape. 

 Yang ni, aku try nak buat Onigiri kunun... tapi entah aku main buat jak.. sedar-sedar lagi sudah salah step. hahaha.. bantai bagi siap jak lah,.,

Yang ni, aku buat santai jak.. 'Hai'. 

Cuba kata 'Hai', manatau jodoh kan.. hahaha

Okay, that's all for this post..

See you again in the next post.

May Allah bless us.. aamiin.

*E*N*D*

6 April 2015

Assalamualaikum,

Hai. Apa khabar pembaca blogku ini? (aisehmen, betrip lagi bah si amal ni. hahaha)

     Lama dah aku tak kemaskinikan blog Roda Coklat ni. Sibuk dengan semester 4 ni adalah salah satu dari puncanya dan idea yang aku nak tulis pun kebanyakkannya pasal luahan hati yang entah, boleh dipublish ke tak. Sebab aku rasa macam nak mention real name ja supaya orang tu tahu yang aku tujukan post tu untuknya. Namun, alhamdulillah, aku masih waras dan behave, kalau tak memang tak tahu lah mana nak letak muka aku ni kalau aku betul betul buat post-post luahan hati sebelum ini. Hahaha

     Sekarang ni, hari ke-tiga dalam cuti pertengahan semester buat Universiti Malaysia Perlis (UniMAP) dan aku hanya duduk lepak dalam bilik yang ala-ala sauna. It's summer time.  Bahang bruh. hahaha.

"Duduk, lepak jer? takdak assignment ke amal oiii?"

- some of you might wonder that. 

or this

" Punya berlambak kerja nak due date lepas cuti ni, amal ni boleh pulak dia duduk lepak ja masa cuti ni?" 

- this thought might from my classmates because actually, we got a lot of things to do  which need to submit after this mid semester holiday ends.

Well, during these three days, I was more like trying to fix my life, you know. I looking for some motivation and doing some self -reflection which I think still have long way to go. Even though I aware that I should start doing preparation for all my subjects. Since, I think I messed up my Thermodynamics, Fluid Mechanics, and Engineering Mathematics III mid term test. This semester is pretty though! Dealing with subject that mostly 95% calculation really knock me down, because surely formula and calculation are just not my comfort zone to play with.

Not knowing anything really suck! My stupidity slowly kills me inside. And thats when I just keep silent in class, staring on the white board or lecturer's PowerPoint presentation. 

• Some lecturer's style of teaching are just to fast for me, until I always left behind.
• Some lecturer's style of teaching are like puzzle, they gave a starter, but they want us to finish until the end which way that I can't reach the end of the question.
• and other problems which also come from me...

I don't think I have the capability to learn faster in subject that have calculation and formula. And I think its spread to other subject too. But what's now? I already choose this programme RK84- Product Design Engineering. Until one day, I post this on my Facebook.

The difficulty being a product design engineering student reminds me about the offer that I received when I applied to higher eduction after my SPM. I got TESL, Graphic design, and other course too. But yeahh all of them are located at Semenanjung which I know, I will not get the chance to take that offer. At that time, I was so obsessed with Politeknik Kota Kinabalu, one reason of my obsession is about the Taekwondo, since I still active joining the taekwondo competition. hehehe. Ok, that so old story. So, what's next mal?

Have you ever felt that, you want to be the most intelligent person that can study on your own so that you don't have to beg for someone to teach you which any means getting no help from other people? I felt this several time. I envy those who clever enough to study on their own.. How they do it  and become successful pass in their exam? How they study? Everything is 'how?'. 

• I want to be successful like them.
• I want my pointer above 3.
• I want everything that I want.

hahaha. ok behave mal. One of my friends, told me, 'kena rajin', so I should be hardworking right? hm. My girl friends always say ' Kak Mal boleh! kak Mal boleh!' to me. Thanks to my close classmate and my housemate. Saying motivation words to someone who already knockdown like me, is like giving hope by watering the almost dead flower. May Allah bless us all. Aamiin.

1 March 2015

Little song plays around.
My heart starting to missing someone.
Oh! I'm confused.
Memories play back slowly.
I remember that one day.
He waited at distance while I was walked towards him.
Somehow, I steal a glance at him while he looked away.
He was near yet far to reach within my heart.

I was going to tell him about how I feel.
But sudden the cold shivering me inside out.
I gained the courage to tell him, but I didn't happen telling him.
A moment holding me back.
The black night.
I'm sitting alone quietly.
Thinking all over again and again.
The light fade from the sight.
As whispering to my waited heart, he is not the one for me.
No matter how long I waited for him.
No matter how many I changed for him.
No matter every moment I missed him
He is not belong to mine.
By keep telling myself that.
I tried to let him go off from my mind.
I tried to keep myself busy filling my life days.
I tried to distance myself from everything that would reminds me of him.
For some weeks and month in these few years, I did it.
But somehow the memories came visited several times but I think it's okay.
Those memories are a part of my life memories that I had spent for.
For some point, after these year passed.
I like him, is it because of him?
or because he cared for me?
or because the memories he made for me?
Yeah, I had been thinking about him a lot.
I don't think I like him because it is him.
That would be sad, I think.
I liked him because he made me happy.
So then, if one day, he made me sad,
I might end up hating him.
These thought trouble me a lot.
And I add this as another reason to forget him.
Yup, got find a million reason to forget about him for now.

Well, several thoughts passing my mind.
Instead of trying so hard to forget and let him go.
Why don't be with and love someone else?
That would be easy to forget all about him.
For a moment, I think that would be nice.
However, something is just feel not so right.
What would I feel if someone do the same on me.
I wouldn't like that either.
So, I ignored those stupid thoughts.

Several things happens lately,
Got married with someone that we love is nice.
But life doesn't always happen that way.
We might got married with one of our friends, cousins.
or even arranged marriage with someone else.
or someone that we never expected would be our life partner.
Yeah, life is unexpected.

Talking about life,
This year I will be 23 years old. Insya-Allah.
Well might as well look 32 years old from my appearance? hahaha
Age is something that can bothers me at times,
but most of the time, I prefer to ignore it. Much better feeling I guess.

To be continued when I got trouble mind...

My Friends (Part 1)

Aku ada seorang kawan yang aku baru saja kenal. Lebih kurang dalam setahun lebih begitu. Hm, aku nak letak nama betul kang, ada kontroversi pula nanti. Biar lah aku gelar dia U. Kenapa U? Hm, saja~. hehehe. 

Kami taklah serapat mana pun, tapi bila terserempak di mana-mana, aku tak rasa janggal untuk menyapa dia. Oh! itu mungkin perkara biasa, tapi bila aku terserempak dengan dia di gerai, walaupun aku baru nak duduk makan kah, tengah duduk makan kah, dia dengan selamba datang duduk makan semeja dengan aku. Kadang-kadang, kalau dia tengah makan sorang dan aku pula baru nak makan, dia ajak makan sekali. Hm, kalau aku, hm aku masih janggal lagi nak ajak dia makan sama. Walaupun sebenarnya dia ni kira pangkat adik aku lah, sebab muda beberapa tahun dari aku..  Pada awalnya, aku rasa janggal juga sebab aku tak kenal sangat dia ni, tapi tak lama lepas tu, aku rasa macam biasa dah, mungkin sebab dia peramah juga kot. Hahaha

Pertama kali dia tegur aku, masa aku jalan pi makan. As always, gerakan solo. Hahaha. Aku rasa tak selesa sangat nak ajak kawan pi teman aku makan di gerai atau gerak pi mana-mana, kecuali kalau sudah tiba keadaan memaksa aku untuk perlukan teman berjalan. hehehe.

" Makan sorang ke?" dia tanya. masa tu, dia tengah lepak dengan kawan-kawan dia.

Aku pun lupa apa reaksi aku masa tu, tapi apa yang aku pasti, aku angguk, aku senyum, dan dengan pantas aku beredar dari situ. Segan.

Sejak beberapa kali terserempak macam tu, aku rasa ok dah. Tak rasa janggal sangat. Tapi duduk dengan U ni, kadang-kadang buat satu kejutan juga buat aku. Ada satu hari tu, aku duduk lepak di gerai, nak tengok Maharaja Lawak Mega, sebab jarang tengok rancangan tv dan masa tu aku agak stress nak mengadap buku. Aku duk sorang-sorang ja di salah satu meja yang ada dalam gerai tu. Ketawa, memang aku ketawa sungguh lah. (Ada aku kesah nak cover ketawa? Peduli, yg penting aku hilangkan stress, tapi taklah sampai tahap ketawa nak mengilai tu. hehehe). 

Aku ternampak dia tengah lepak dengan kawan dia, lebih kurang arah jam 10 dan jauh dalam 7 - 10 langkah dari aku. Aku senyum sendiri, aku rasa dia tak nampak kot aku duduk di meja tu. So, aku tak jangkakan apa-apa pun. Tak lama lepas tu, tiba-tiba kedengaran suara lalu dari belakang, sejurus itu, beberapa plastik makanan diletakkan atas meja aku. Aku keliru seketika. Dia duduk sebelah aku diikuti olah seorang kawan dia. Macam biasa, aku tegur dan bercerita dengan U, tapi aku rasa janggal pula bila tak bawa kawan U bercerita sekali. Perbualan yang dimulakan dengan pertanyaan, ternyata berhasil. Nasib baik juga lah, kawan U ni guna " Aku & Kau" juga, Aku memang janggal sikit guna "Saya & Awak & Kamu" ni. Hahaha.

Kalau nak diceritakan detik-detik setiap kali terserempak dengan U ni memang tak dapat aku nak cerita, sebab aku lupa dah. hahahaha. Tapi apa yang aku nak ceritakan tentang kawanku, U ni. Ada hari tu, Aku tengah duduk makan di gerai sambil tengok tv. U join aku makan semeja. Memandangkan aku memang dah nak habis makan pun, aku stay temankan dia makan dengan teh aisku. Cerita punya cerita, banyak benda yang aku tak tahu pasal dia ni. Dan banyak yang unexpected story lah. Bukannya aku pandang rendah kat U ni, tapi memandangkan aku hanya tahu dia ada bakat tu, jadi aku ingat macam tu ja lah. Dan lepak dengan dia pada hari tu buat aku terfikir dua perkara.

Kebiasaanku, habis ja makan, bayar dan terus blah. Sampai di rumah, ngantuk dan tidur jap. Then, baru bangun buat kerja. Tapi hari tu, balik rumah, aku sambung buat kerja aku. Jadi, aku rasa aku dah boleh faham kenapa orang lepak lama-lama lepas habis makan. Hahaha.

Kedua, aku tak ingat apa nama rancangan di tv masa tu, tapi yang aku ingat, Izzue Islam merupakan pelakon lelaki dalam cerita tu. Aku ni jarang memuji pelakon depan-depan, hari tu entah lah. Mungkin aku dah anggap dia macam kawan yang boleh aku share pendapat aku yang merapu. Satu ja, aku puji Izzue Islam tu handsome. Bila aku dah share pendapat aku tu, aku tak sangka pula dia bagi feedback balik. Mula tu dia geleng kepala pastu siap bagi nasihat, bahawa izzue islam tu dah jadi laki orang, cari lah yang bujang, katanya. Aku agak speechless juga di situ, tapi aku cuba jelaskan yg aku suka tengok sebagai peminat ja pun. Dan dia nasihatkan aku dengan perkara yang sama. Aku memang dah tak boleh counterattack dah. hahahaha. Aku ketawa ja lah... Masa dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah tu, aku terfikir. Ada betulnya nasihat dia tu. Artis pun manusia juga. Laki orang tetap laki orang walaupun dia artis. Dan aku teringat dekat Ha Dong Hoon (HaHa). Hoh, tak boleh lah ni aku minat lebih-lebih sama HaHa. Dia pun dah kahwin dengan Byul.. huhuhu...  

Baiklah, setakat ni itu saja cerita aku pasal U. Dia punya aura personaliti tu seakan-akan mengingatkan aku kepada seseorang. Hampir-hampir saja sama. Tapi kalau tengok secara luaran memang berbeza lah.  Hm, mungkin perasaanku ja kali tuh kan? hahaha

Oklah. kalau aku senang hati nanti, aku nak cerita setiap seorang mengenai kawan-kawan yang aku ada...Insya-Allah. 

Oh ya, kalau lah tetiba kan, U yang aku maksudkan ni baca pasal post ni. Aku nak kata,

"Thanks bro. Aku doakan agar ko sentiasa sukses dalam apa jua yang ko impikan. Aku rasa beruntung dapat kenal ko, dan ko salah satu kawan aku di Perlis yang aku rasa aku tak janggal sangat kalau nak bercerita kalau jumpa. Stay healthy and see you next semester, bro."

Chow.

My Part in Mini Group Project: The Excavator Base

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

This time I'm trying to post something different than I'm usually post on youtube.

It's about my part in our mini project for CAD subject in this semester. We were given a task to draw something related to agriculture tools or machine by using Catia V5. My group member got the drawing but with no dimension. So, we just randomly set the dimension except the certain parts that need to connect to the other parts. 

I'm just a beginner in catia and most of the method I used in this video are came from trial and error. So, if you have any better suggestion, you may leave a comment below. Thank you. ^_^

Thanks for watching.

Music used:

1. Haha, Taw (With Gary of LeeSsang and Kim Greem)

2. Beep by Park Ji Yoon

My Part in Mini Group Project: The Excavator Bucket

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

This time I'm trying to post something different than I'm usually post on youtube.

It's about my part in our mini project for CAD subject in this semester. We were given a task to draw something related to agriculture tools or machine by using Catia V5. My group member got the drawing but with no dimension. So, we just randomly set the dimension except the certain parts that need to connect to the other parts. 

I'm just a beginner in catia and most of the method I used in this video are came from trial and error. So, if you have any better suggestion, you may leave a comment below. Thank you. ^_^

Thanks for watching.

Music used:

1. Gatsu No Serenade by Suga Shikao

2. Tamagawa song in Honey And Clover.

9 Februari 2015

Hari keluar keputusan peperiksaan semester 3 aku, dalam suka ada jua dukanya. Alhamdulillah, pointer aku naik sikit dari pointer semester 2 tapi.... subjek yang aku harapkan untuk lulus dan tak payah repeat lagi. 

"Ibarat belon yang terbang bebas tinggi namun tersepit di celah ranting pokok."

Ya, aku gagal lagi Engineering Mathematics II. Ya Allah. Adakah aku ni memang . . . . .? Hurm. Apa pun, grade math II aku kali ini lebih baik dari grade math II semester 2. Think positive? Ya, itu yang aku cuba lakukan sekarang ini. Walaupun pada hakikatnya, memang sukar mahu fikir hikmah yang positif di sebalik semua ni. 

Aku beranikan diri bagitau keputusan peperiksaanku kepada ibu dan bapa. Kalau nak diikutkan hati, mahu saja aku bagitau dorang bila aku dah balik Perlis nanti. Tapi hati aku pasti akan resah sepanjang cuti-cuti nak kembali ke Perlis Indera Kayangan ni. So, aku bagitau. Tak lupa juga aku bagitau kegagalan Math II tu. 

"Kau yang pilih mahu ambil tu (kos kejuruteraan rekabentuk produk)." kata bapa.

" Saya pilih design, ingat nda belajar matematik kejuruteaan." balasku pendek.

Nasib baik ibu mencelah, tanya pasal pointer. Entah, masa tu aku memang terasa sedih pula tetiba. Rasa dipersalahkan atas tindakan sendiri. Memang aku salah dah kah pilih kos ni? Itu buat aku berfikir seketika. Ya, memang aku pun yang pilih kos ini. Aku sepatutnya bersedia tanggung segala risiko yang bakal menanti dalam menongkah arus perjalanan ni. Tapi kenapa aku rasa macam tak bersedia? Kalau kata sudah bersedia, mengapa rasa terluka? Wajarkah perasaan sedih ni timbul dek kerana pilihan hati sendiri? And I starting not understand myself. Who else can understand me?

Jiwa oh jiwa... Rasa kebencian dan kemarahan terhadap math II ni bagai disemai tiap saat bila aku fikir semula.Tapi bila fikir semua balik. Ya, salah aku juga. Tak sungguh-sungguh belajar. Aku rasa masa yang paling aku bersemangat nak belajar ialah semasa belajar lukisan kejuruteraan, AutoCAD, CATIA. Ya, subjek-subjek tu yang aku bersungguh nak belajar. Kalau boleh, JANGAN KACAU AKU MASA AKU TENGAH BELAJAR SUBJEK2 TU KALAU TAK MAU KENA MARAH. Hahahaha. walaupun sebenarnya, aku tak mahir sangat dalam subjek tu, tapi ya, perasaannya macam tu. I love the feeling when I study those subject.

Even masa sekolah menengah dulu, subjek lain aku ulangkaji bersungguh juga, tapi tak bersungguh-sungguh macam aku belajar Lukisan kejuruteraan. Dan kali ini pun, aku buat macam tu jua. Sains dan pengiraaan. Sejujurnya, aku memang tak suka nak bergelumang dalam tu bila aku nda faham. Tapi, kalau aku faham, insya-Allah, hati aku ringan sikit nak buat assignment. 

Eh! Eh! Jap.

Aku tau dah apa masalah aku ni. Aku tak suka rasa "susah nak belajar". Tapi apa kan daya, subjek teras aku semester 4 yang akan datang ni hampir semua susah. Aku pun tak tahu macamana mau belajar lagi ni. Adakah otak aku ni nda ngam sudah untuk menuntut ilmu? Hm, gambaran rupa alam pekerjaanku nanti bergantung sebaik mana usaha aku nak menyelamatkan diri dalam lautan Product Design Engineering di UniMAP ni. Tak lupa juga, rezeki itu rahsia Allah. 

Ya, kalau diikuatkan sebanyak mana pun usahaku, rezeki dan hikmah di sebalik kejadian tu adalah milik Allah. So, jangan give up, mal... ada 5 semester lagi aku di UniMAP ni. 

Kadang-kadang, orang yang kita sayang pun boleh buat kita kecewa. 

Kadang-kadang, orang yang paling rapat dengan kita pun boleh buat kita terluka.

Kadang-kadang, banyak kawan pun lebih buat kita rasa terasing dan sepi.

Kadang-kadang, banyak perasaan yang perlu kita sembunyikan dalam diri.

Kadang-kadang, apa yang kita harapkan selalu tak jadi kenyataan.

Kadang-kadang, duka datang menjengah selepas kebahagian di kecapi.

Sebab itu,

Kita kena selalu dekatkan diri pada Allah.

Bila aku baca artikel motivasi,

Sedangkan aku lupa yang aku tengah bernafas dengan tenang saat ini,

Udara yang dihirup mudah jua tanda kasihnya Allah kepada hambanya,

Well, aku bukan berada dalam posisi seorang muslimah yang baik dan sejati,

Tapi sebagai hamba Allah, 

Aku percaya,

Segala kejadian yang berlaku ada hikmah yang tersirat disebaliknya.

Ku yakin perancanganNya lebih berhikmah dari apa yang aku rencanakan.

Mungkin nanti akan ku temui hikmahnya, 

Esok, lusa, semester depan, atau pun di hari yang aku tak jangka,

Be Strong My Heart.

Stand on your feet.

Move on.

You might fall again in the future, but bear this in mind, this is your story, Amal. Give up is not the way in this story. Try, " put 100% passion and commitment in everything you do.".

Insya-Allah.

God Bless Us. Aamiiiin

Solo Fly

It's been 11 years. 
Somehow, it's funny for the past feeling that change over time. 
I saw someone, one of my childhood friend.
I remember all of the memory as it were happen just yesterday.
From the beginning, the conflict, the smile, the tears, and then the end.
Then those scars cured.
Meeting new people everyday life.
Falling deep down again.
Wounded by words and acts again.
Cured again.
Then fall again.
Until it reached one point.
I'm chary of getting around people again.
I closed all the possible way.
Then, I lose friends.
Cold and fears inside.
Smile just a excuses to be okay.
And the hope that I'll be okay with that.
War inside.
Deciding to keep close or open life.
Got several people were hurt while trying to get into this life.
And I said,
Let them hurt and leave me now, than later.
After all, this life is solo fly.
You don't fly on your own,
then you fall down to the ground,
you can't depends on someone wings to fly up to the blue sky.
smile emoticon

21 Januari 2014

Assalamualaikum W.B.T dan Hai.

Lama juga nda mengabar cerita kehidupan dalam blog ni, walaupun sebenarnya aku selalu juga jenguk kalau online melalui laptop. Tapi, idea nak mengarang ayat tu teda. Hahaha.

Ok.

Intro 

Hari ini hari ke-3 aku berada di rumah sejak cuti semester 3 bermula. Everybody is Home! Ibu, Bapa, aku, puen, ofu, dan wena. Alhamdulillah. Rasa macam bertahun-tahun nda balik rumah, padahal berapa bulan jak pun tinggal di Perlis tu. Hm, tapi memang aku rasa lama gila. Rindu rumah pun selalu bertandang di jiwa kala malam menjelma. Rindu orang rumah, rindu makan ayam panggang pasar malam Kota Belud, rindu motor, rindu politeknik KK, rindu RP, rindu kawan-kawan, rindu budak tu. Segala rindu-rinduan jadi kenang-kenangan. Dan aku rindu kenangan tu.

(rasa mcm tua betul pula diri ni skg. Menuju ke 23 tahun, Insya-Allah, pada tahun ini)
Dan HP aku sekarang ni, tidak lebih tidak kurang, hanya berfungsi sebagai alat electronic yang memainkan lagu favourite aku, kamera aku, dan hanya jarang berfungsi sebagai HP, maybe sebab teda kredit. hahahaah. Kalau di rumah ni, jarang lah aku mengadap HP, selalu laptop main plant vs zombie mode Survival, so, HP tu terbiar.. :D

The Biggest Looser (TBH)

Sebelum balik bercuti hari tu, 

Semasa minggu study week rasanya,

Di suatu malam yang hening,

Semua housemate ada di rumah kecuali aisyah,

Entah macamana boleh keluar cerita diet ni,

Rasanya masa kami bercerita pasal majlis makan malam untuk ppk kali. 

Nak plan nak pakai baju ikut tema apa. hahaha

Aku kalau pasal majlis makan malam ni, baju tema main bantai jak.

Yg penting aku selesa pakai, dapat makan dengan bahagia, dan ada kawan bercerita di sebelah.

Ok lah tu. Hahahaha

But, I willing to join the game.

4 dari 7 housemate, join the game.

Aku pun nda tau apa progress aku nak turunkan berat ni.

Mau senaman, malas pula aku nak bergerak ke sana ke mari,

My current weight 72 kg.

Zaman muda dulu maintain 54 kg ja.

16 kg naik tuh mal oii.

Aku noticed beratku naik selepas habis poli,

Berhenti terus dari latihan taekwondo dan silatku,

Kerja setahun setengah jadi Cashier,

Kalau balik kerja malam, 

Makan mee goreng ayam dulu di Mayang Sari.

Masuk UniMAP pla, no comment,

Aku jarang keluar rumah sangat. keluar rumah pun pi kelas atau pi makan.

and the stress, I handled them with eating and sleeping.

Hm, bad habit. But that was the way I choose to cope up my stress during that time.

Anyway, balik dari cuti ni, kena timbang balik and decide who is the winner.

Aku tak harap sangat la.

Sekurang-kurangnya, beratku turun pi 65 kg pun ok lah.

Insya-Allah. Fighting Mal!

Monster Tail Rainbow Loom

Wena show me her monsterl tail rainbow loom for kid crafting. Ohohoho. So this thing does exist here. So, I asked Wena to teach me how to do the bracelet. Here is my first trial.

My First Trial: Black and White

StarBrust Bracelet ni aku tengok tutorial di youtube. Mula-mula tu confused juga. Tapi, boleh lah di follow setelah repeat bnyk kali video tu. Nampak sangat aku ni Visual learner. Hahaha. Thanks for the tutorial sis..

My Second Trial: Starbrust Bracelet

Tadaaa

Masa tengah buat Starbrust bracelet tu, aku  dah mulai bosan sebab asyik buat step yang sama. Rasa nak berhenti buat tu dan sambung esok pagi ja, tapi aku pujuk hati,

"sikit lagi mau siap ni, mal. Nda ka ko mo tgk mcmna rupanya ni kalau sudah siap?"

Monolog hati gitu. Hahaha. 

Aku, Wena, dan Matematik

Then, aku cuba jua menyiapkan sisa gelang tu sambil dengar adik aku baca sifir 6. Aku pun nda pass betul sifir 6 ni, jadi 2 dalam satu. Ibu suruh aku ajar wena Matematik. Walhal, aku ni lemah juga subjek matematik dan sains. Tapi entah bila, tahun lepas, Wena tanya aku latihan dalam buku teks Bahasa Malaysia dia, Tahun 2. Sandi, aku rasa bingung mana mau cari jawapan untuk soalan bahasa Malaysia tu. Atau aku malas mau fikir. hahahah. So, aku agree ja nak ajar wena matematik, for the first step, aku suruh wena hafal sifir. Sebab aku dulu memang lemah sifir ni. hm, Nampaknya, aku pun kena belajar macamana mau mengajar si wena matematik ni. hehehe

Sekian, cerita pengisian hari cuti semester 3 ku.

Mini Project Catia (Part: Technical Problem)

Technical Problem pula nak buka part Assembly.

Emosiku berkocak.

Buku final exam pun tak belek lagi ni.

29 ni dah mula Final Exam.

Nak progress futher pun sudah nda boleh.

Sebab guna part Assembly tu juga.

Doushite? Nokuro? Ngini eh? Wae? oh why?

Semalam buka okay ja.

Hari ni tak okay pula.

Esok dah nak kena hantar.

Nasib video assembly tu ok. Alhamdulillah.

Kalau tak,

bercucuran juga air mata aku on this instant.

Aku hanya boleh berharap pensyarah aku terima project ni.

Huhuhu

"Tamagawa"

Vocals: Spitz

Music, Lyrics: Kusano Masamune

My Confession Story :"|

8 November 2014

Sejak seminggu dua ni, aku rasa emosi aku agak kacau bilau sikit. 

Salah satunya kenapa? Aku hampir saja nak buat pengakuan dengan orang yang aku rasa aku suka selama 2 tahun lebih ni. Tiba-tiba ja kan? 

Tapi yang aku hairan, masa bercerita tu, aku takda pun rasa hati aku ni berdebar-debar or fluttering something. Jadi aku ingat aku akan tenang lah, tapi bila aku buat keputusan nak bagitahu dia yang aku suka dia, secara automatik aku rasa gemuruh gila. Gemuruh macam berdiri di atas pentas perhimpunan, hah macam tu lah yang aku rasa. 

Masa tu motif aku, aku macam nak bagitahu dia, apa perasaan aku sama dia dan aku nak tahu juga apa perasaan dia terhadap aku. Dia dah berpunya ke belum. Kalau belum, aku nak tahu kalau dia boleh terima aku ke tak memandangkan aku ni tak lah secantik mana pun, berat pun dah bertambah-tambah sejak terakhir jumpa, tahap kepintaran aku pun tak setinggi mana, diiringi lagi dengan panas baran yang entah hilang ke mana button controlnya. 

Entah apa yang aku jangkakan dari semua ini. Aku cuma ada harapan. Aku harap kalau dia boleh terima aku, boleh kah dia tunggu aku sampai aku habis belajar di Perlis ni walaupun tanpa ikatan berpasangan. Kalau boleh, aku nak dia kenal baik buruk aku sebelum terima aku. Maklumlah, kehidupan kita ni lain-lain kan. Ada yang lemah lembut, ada yang baik sangat, ada yang kasar, ada yang bermacam-macam lagi lah.

Dan kalau dia tak terima aku, dalam erti kata lain, Tolak aku dalam kehidupan dia, aku rasa aku boleh terima hakikat tu. Dan sudah tentu, memang rasa sedih juga la kali. Hahaha, ya lah, sedih pula tu direject kan. Tapi, sekurang-kurangnya, aku tak lah menunggu sesuatu yang tidak pasti lagi kan. Lagipun, dia tu jauh di mata, dekat di hati seja. Dan aku rasa, dia tak tau kali yang aku suka sama dia. eh, yang aku sedar aku suka dia pun masa mo tamat semester akhir di poli. hahaha. 

However, there was once, it was during dinner. I was sitting behind him at that round table, He was sitting facing to the front, so all that I can see is his back. He was talking to the other girls in front of me. Suddenly, deep inside I feel a slip of jealousy. I don't know if he notice that I'm sitting on the same table, but as I remember, he don't even say hi to me. I don't think I can smile at that time. Sad. Yeah, a little bit sad there. I just joined the dinner because I want to meet him, but then all things not went well as I expected. Since then, I started to vanish my feelings for him.

Then back to the story line, aku tak jadi pun confess kat dia.

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba aku jadi takut, mula tu nak sangat confess kan. hahaha
Takut di terima atau takut direject, aku pun nda tau jenis ketakutan aku ni yang mana satu.

Tapi, ada pengajaran yang aku dapat masa tu,

Aku sedar yang aku masih tak layak nak luahkan itu semua kepada dia.

Lebih-lebih lagi bila aku buka fb,

Jumpa kata-kata motivasi nasihat berkenaan cinta ni,

Ada satu ayat tu, aku lupa ayat fullnya,

Maksudnya lebih kurang macam ni la,

"Bila kita luahkan perasaan cinta kita kat orang tu sebenarnya kita dah menzalimi orang tu."

Sebenarnya, aku pun tak faham sangat ayat tu,

dari sudut mana yang aku zalimi dia kalau aku luahkan perasaan aku padanya,

Tapi masa tu, aku faham akan keadaan aku,

Aku ni sekarang tengah sambung belajar,

Duit makan minum aku pun parentku yang tanggung,

Sekurang-kurangnya,

Biar habis belajar dulu,

Dapat kerja tetap,

Bagi stabil dulu kehidupan,

Mungkin masa tu baru lah sesuai aku nak cari dia balik ka.

Tapi,

Kalau aku terlambat macam mana?

Then, aku ingatkan diri,

Cuba tanam kata-kata itu dalam diri,

Aku kena percaya Rahsia Allah itu indah perancangannya,

Kalau dia bukan jodoh aku, maka memang bukan lah tu,

Mungkin memang dia yang aku suka,

Tapi tak semua yang diimpikan dapat dimiliki.

Selama dalam ingatan aku,

Dia seorang lelaki yang baik,

Aku sedar bila aku kawan dengan dia,

Dia layan aku baik-baik,

Buat aku rasa aku patut berperangai lebih seperti seorang wanita,

Bukan seperti layanan yang selalu aku terima dari kawan-kawan aku,
Kalau kawan aku, hm,
Layan aku,

Seakan-akan aku seorang lelaki,
Mungkin sebab aku belajar taekwondo kot,
Sebab tu kawan-kawan aku layan aku kasar-kasar,

Memang proses nak berubah, tu memakan masa yang lama,
Maklumlah, mostly kawan aku yang rapat sebelum ni pun semuanya lelaki.
Dan aku tak perlu jaga hati dorang ni sangat,
Nak gaduh ke,
Nak jalan dulu tinggalkan dorang ke,
Buat panas hati ke, bagi penyepak satu ke,
Tak perlu nak kisahkan sangat,
Hm, lelaki kan. Hahaha
Dan itu buat aku rasa janggal nak bergaul dengan kawan perempuan.
Sebab aku sendiri rasa,
Hati perempuan ni sukar nak jaga.
Senang nak terasa hati.
Senang rasa tersisih.
Dan banyak lagi lah.
Tapi, sejak aku ada dua tiga orang kawan perempuan masa tu,
Aku faham boleh faham sikit-sikit hidup ni macamana.
One way leads to another choice of ways.
Aku rasa aku banyak dah berubah.
Suara maybe dah tak selantang dulu.
Yalah, dulu kena kritik pasal suara kuat sangat kan.
Jalan pun dah lebih perlahan dari yang dulu.
Bukan lagi laju macam LRT,
Dan secara automatik pun, berat aku naik.
Oh ok. hahaha

Apa pun, aku rasa.
Aku hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan ja selama ni.
Ya, Itu yang aku yakin pasti.
Sebab, I just got the feeling that he no longer interested to talk to me anymore.
And I think I understand that sign of conversation.
I think I need to delete his phone number from my smartphone.
But I don't know why,
I still can't do it.
Maybe I will keep his phone number until the day,
Either he got married or me got married,
Then, at that time I will delete his phone number for sure.
But,
I wish I don't have to delete his number,
If he's gonna be mine after all, right?
Hahahahaha. Okay,
Amal, you're dreaming right?!
Yes, only in your dream la kali, mal.

Okay, lets live a life, mal.

My 19 October 2014

Assalamualaikum W.B.T / Annyeonghaseyo.

My second sister just called me at 9.35 am which wake me up from sleeping. She expect me going home this mid semester break, because my young brother and her are coming home for this mid semester break. I told her that I didn't going back to Sabah for this mid semester break. I didn't even open the air asia web page to look up for ticket. I decided to going back at the end of this semester, Insya-Allah.

So, I wake up, went to the living room with my laptop. Here I go again.

This time, was my exactly Catia Assignment. 4 Figures need to draw.

Question 1: Figure T6.5

As I saw straight line and rectangle shape, one word came out on my mind 'OFFSET'!

This will be a lot of offset line.

One of my lecturer commented as he saw my drawing progress,

"Banyaknya line Amal."

and I just smile without looking back. 

I'm just too immersed into this. 

HAhahaha

Step 1.

Let's start with the Sketcher.

I choose black color for the background with grid line. 

Step 2.

→Starting with select the zx plane one the specification tree then click 'Sketcher' icon.

[I'm not familiar with constructing line according to Vertical and Horizontal point s drawing, so actually I start with drawing a rectangle shape and offset those line until I got the intersection line. ]

→Remove all the aid lines so it will be looks like this.

Step 3.

→Got the zx plane view shape, click 'Exit Workbench' icon.

→Click the zx plane (the Sketch.1).

→Click 'Pad' icon until 'Pad Definition' pop up.

→Type: Dimension.

→Length : 42 mm

→Selection : Sketch.1

→Click 'Preview' then 'OK'.

Step 4.

→After pad operation, it will appear like this.
→Don't confuse with the 3 stripe white color, it because I forgot to turn of the lighting effect.
→So, I select the yz pad plane as shown in figure below then click 'Sketcher' icon.

Step 5.

→Entering sketcher, the plane will faced like this.
→By using aids from the offset lines, I drew the rectangle shape [red line].
→Click 'Exit workbench' icon.

Step 6.

→Click the 'Pocket' icon until the 'Pocket Definition' table pop up.
→Type: Dimension
→Depth: 10mm
→Selection: Sketch.2
→Click 'OK'.

Step 7.

→Repeat Step 4, 5, and 6 at the other side.

[Mr. Fendi had thought me how to do the mirror by using a plane, 

but suddenly, I forgot already the actual steps, so I just do it like this. If anyone have a better way to do this, I gladly appreciate it. =) ]

→Select the pad plane as shown below and click 'Sketcher' icon.

Step 8.

→Entering the sketcher, it may faced like this.
→The yellow lines are Offset line just find the middle.
→I drew the circle at the center with diameter of 10 mm.

[Oh ya! I'm not really sure about this, but as shown at the question. It stated that 'Through Hole 20 Diameter. Maybe it should be done by 'Hole' method, but yeah, I not quite sure how it works, so I just used 'Pocket' method.] So, this is how it looks after the pocket operation.

Step 9.

I just want to view this with another option,

so I select the 'Shading with edges and hidden edges' view. 

It's clearly show us the hidden drawing.

Step 10.(Extra but not so important) =D

→ Color: Red and white.

→Lighting: On

→ Just another classy finishing kunun. Ha3. Chill bro.

Xie Xie

Syukran

Arigato Gozaimasu

Kamsahamnida

Terima Kasih

Thank You

 for reading and judging? perhaps? hehehe

Alhamdulillah.

p/s: Have any suggestion? Just drop your comment below. I might consider it with calm and passion. Kunun. hehehe