Solo Fly

It's been 11 years. 
Somehow, it's funny for the past feeling that change over time. 
I saw someone, one of my childhood friend.
I remember all of the memory as it were happen just yesterday.
From the beginning, the conflict, the smile, the tears, and then the end.
Then those scars cured.
Meeting new people everyday life.
Falling deep down again.
Wounded by words and acts again.
Cured again.
Then fall again.
Until it reached one point.
I'm chary of getting around people again.
I closed all the possible way.
Then, I lose friends.
Cold and fears inside.
Smile just a excuses to be okay.
And the hope that I'll be okay with that.
War inside.
Deciding to keep close or open life.
Got several people were hurt while trying to get into this life.
And I said,
Let them hurt and leave me now, than later.
After all, this life is solo fly.
You don't fly on your own,
then you fall down to the ground,
you can't depends on someone wings to fly up to the blue sky.
smile emoticon

21 Januari 2014

Assalamualaikum W.B.T dan Hai.

Lama juga nda mengabar cerita kehidupan dalam blog ni, walaupun sebenarnya aku selalu juga jenguk kalau online melalui laptop. Tapi, idea nak mengarang ayat tu teda. Hahaha.

Ok.

Intro 

Hari ini hari ke-3 aku berada di rumah sejak cuti semester 3 bermula. Everybody is Home! Ibu, Bapa, aku, puen, ofu, dan wena. Alhamdulillah. Rasa macam bertahun-tahun nda balik rumah, padahal berapa bulan jak pun tinggal di Perlis tu. Hm, tapi memang aku rasa lama gila. Rindu rumah pun selalu bertandang di jiwa kala malam menjelma. Rindu orang rumah, rindu makan ayam panggang pasar malam Kota Belud, rindu motor, rindu politeknik KK, rindu RP, rindu kawan-kawan, rindu budak tu. Segala rindu-rinduan jadi kenang-kenangan. Dan aku rindu kenangan tu.

(rasa mcm tua betul pula diri ni skg. Menuju ke 23 tahun, Insya-Allah, pada tahun ini)
Dan HP aku sekarang ni, tidak lebih tidak kurang, hanya berfungsi sebagai alat electronic yang memainkan lagu favourite aku, kamera aku, dan hanya jarang berfungsi sebagai HP, maybe sebab teda kredit. hahahaah. Kalau di rumah ni, jarang lah aku mengadap HP, selalu laptop main plant vs zombie mode Survival, so, HP tu terbiar.. :D

The Biggest Looser (TBH)

Sebelum balik bercuti hari tu, 

Semasa minggu study week rasanya,

Di suatu malam yang hening,

Semua housemate ada di rumah kecuali aisyah,

Entah macamana boleh keluar cerita diet ni,

Rasanya masa kami bercerita pasal majlis makan malam untuk ppk kali. 

Nak plan nak pakai baju ikut tema apa. hahaha

Aku kalau pasal majlis makan malam ni, baju tema main bantai jak.

Yg penting aku selesa pakai, dapat makan dengan bahagia, dan ada kawan bercerita di sebelah.

Ok lah tu. Hahahaha

But, I willing to join the game.

4 dari 7 housemate, join the game.

Aku pun nda tau apa progress aku nak turunkan berat ni.

Mau senaman, malas pula aku nak bergerak ke sana ke mari,

My current weight 72 kg.

Zaman muda dulu maintain 54 kg ja.

16 kg naik tuh mal oii.

Aku noticed beratku naik selepas habis poli,

Berhenti terus dari latihan taekwondo dan silatku,

Kerja setahun setengah jadi Cashier,

Kalau balik kerja malam, 

Makan mee goreng ayam dulu di Mayang Sari.

Masuk UniMAP pla, no comment,

Aku jarang keluar rumah sangat. keluar rumah pun pi kelas atau pi makan.

and the stress, I handled them with eating and sleeping.

Hm, bad habit. But that was the way I choose to cope up my stress during that time.

Anyway, balik dari cuti ni, kena timbang balik and decide who is the winner.

Aku tak harap sangat la.

Sekurang-kurangnya, beratku turun pi 65 kg pun ok lah.

Insya-Allah. Fighting Mal!

Monster Tail Rainbow Loom

Wena show me her monsterl tail rainbow loom for kid crafting. Ohohoho. So this thing does exist here. So, I asked Wena to teach me how to do the bracelet. Here is my first trial.

My First Trial: Black and White

StarBrust Bracelet ni aku tengok tutorial di youtube. Mula-mula tu confused juga. Tapi, boleh lah di follow setelah repeat bnyk kali video tu. Nampak sangat aku ni Visual learner. Hahaha. Thanks for the tutorial sis..

My Second Trial: Starbrust Bracelet

Tadaaa

Masa tengah buat Starbrust bracelet tu, aku  dah mulai bosan sebab asyik buat step yang sama. Rasa nak berhenti buat tu dan sambung esok pagi ja, tapi aku pujuk hati,

"sikit lagi mau siap ni, mal. Nda ka ko mo tgk mcmna rupanya ni kalau sudah siap?"

Monolog hati gitu. Hahaha. 

Aku, Wena, dan Matematik

Then, aku cuba jua menyiapkan sisa gelang tu sambil dengar adik aku baca sifir 6. Aku pun nda pass betul sifir 6 ni, jadi 2 dalam satu. Ibu suruh aku ajar wena Matematik. Walhal, aku ni lemah juga subjek matematik dan sains. Tapi entah bila, tahun lepas, Wena tanya aku latihan dalam buku teks Bahasa Malaysia dia, Tahun 2. Sandi, aku rasa bingung mana mau cari jawapan untuk soalan bahasa Malaysia tu. Atau aku malas mau fikir. hahahah. So, aku agree ja nak ajar wena matematik, for the first step, aku suruh wena hafal sifir. Sebab aku dulu memang lemah sifir ni. hm, Nampaknya, aku pun kena belajar macamana mau mengajar si wena matematik ni. hehehe

Sekian, cerita pengisian hari cuti semester 3 ku.

Mini Project Catia (Part: Technical Problem)

Technical Problem pula nak buka part Assembly.

Emosiku berkocak.

Buku final exam pun tak belek lagi ni.

29 ni dah mula Final Exam.

Nak progress futher pun sudah nda boleh.

Sebab guna part Assembly tu juga.

Doushite? Nokuro? Ngini eh? Wae? oh why?

Semalam buka okay ja.

Hari ni tak okay pula.

Esok dah nak kena hantar.

Nasib video assembly tu ok. Alhamdulillah.

Kalau tak,

bercucuran juga air mata aku on this instant.

Aku hanya boleh berharap pensyarah aku terima project ni.

Huhuhu

"Tamagawa"

Vocals: Spitz

Music, Lyrics: Kusano Masamune

My Confession Story :"|

8 November 2014

Sejak seminggu dua ni, aku rasa emosi aku agak kacau bilau sikit. 

Salah satunya kenapa? Aku hampir saja nak buat pengakuan dengan orang yang aku rasa aku suka selama 2 tahun lebih ni. Tiba-tiba ja kan? 

Tapi yang aku hairan, masa bercerita tu, aku takda pun rasa hati aku ni berdebar-debar or fluttering something. Jadi aku ingat aku akan tenang lah, tapi bila aku buat keputusan nak bagitahu dia yang aku suka dia, secara automatik aku rasa gemuruh gila. Gemuruh macam berdiri di atas pentas perhimpunan, hah macam tu lah yang aku rasa. 

Masa tu motif aku, aku macam nak bagitahu dia, apa perasaan aku sama dia dan aku nak tahu juga apa perasaan dia terhadap aku. Dia dah berpunya ke belum. Kalau belum, aku nak tahu kalau dia boleh terima aku ke tak memandangkan aku ni tak lah secantik mana pun, berat pun dah bertambah-tambah sejak terakhir jumpa, tahap kepintaran aku pun tak setinggi mana, diiringi lagi dengan panas baran yang entah hilang ke mana button controlnya. 

Entah apa yang aku jangkakan dari semua ini. Aku cuma ada harapan. Aku harap kalau dia boleh terima aku, boleh kah dia tunggu aku sampai aku habis belajar di Perlis ni walaupun tanpa ikatan berpasangan. Kalau boleh, aku nak dia kenal baik buruk aku sebelum terima aku. Maklumlah, kehidupan kita ni lain-lain kan. Ada yang lemah lembut, ada yang baik sangat, ada yang kasar, ada yang bermacam-macam lagi lah.

Dan kalau dia tak terima aku, dalam erti kata lain, Tolak aku dalam kehidupan dia, aku rasa aku boleh terima hakikat tu. Dan sudah tentu, memang rasa sedih juga la kali. Hahaha, ya lah, sedih pula tu direject kan. Tapi, sekurang-kurangnya, aku tak lah menunggu sesuatu yang tidak pasti lagi kan. Lagipun, dia tu jauh di mata, dekat di hati seja. Dan aku rasa, dia tak tau kali yang aku suka sama dia. eh, yang aku sedar aku suka dia pun masa mo tamat semester akhir di poli. hahaha. 

However, there was once, it was during dinner. I was sitting behind him at that round table, He was sitting facing to the front, so all that I can see is his back. He was talking to the other girls in front of me. Suddenly, deep inside I feel a slip of jealousy. I don't know if he notice that I'm sitting on the same table, but as I remember, he don't even say hi to me. I don't think I can smile at that time. Sad. Yeah, a little bit sad there. I just joined the dinner because I want to meet him, but then all things not went well as I expected. Since then, I started to vanish my feelings for him.

Then back to the story line, aku tak jadi pun confess kat dia.

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba aku jadi takut, mula tu nak sangat confess kan. hahaha
Takut di terima atau takut direject, aku pun nda tau jenis ketakutan aku ni yang mana satu.

Tapi, ada pengajaran yang aku dapat masa tu,

Aku sedar yang aku masih tak layak nak luahkan itu semua kepada dia.

Lebih-lebih lagi bila aku buka fb,

Jumpa kata-kata motivasi nasihat berkenaan cinta ni,

Ada satu ayat tu, aku lupa ayat fullnya,

Maksudnya lebih kurang macam ni la,

"Bila kita luahkan perasaan cinta kita kat orang tu sebenarnya kita dah menzalimi orang tu."

Sebenarnya, aku pun tak faham sangat ayat tu,

dari sudut mana yang aku zalimi dia kalau aku luahkan perasaan aku padanya,

Tapi masa tu, aku faham akan keadaan aku,

Aku ni sekarang tengah sambung belajar,

Duit makan minum aku pun parentku yang tanggung,

Sekurang-kurangnya,

Biar habis belajar dulu,

Dapat kerja tetap,

Bagi stabil dulu kehidupan,

Mungkin masa tu baru lah sesuai aku nak cari dia balik ka.

Tapi,

Kalau aku terlambat macam mana?

Then, aku ingatkan diri,

Cuba tanam kata-kata itu dalam diri,

Aku kena percaya Rahsia Allah itu indah perancangannya,

Kalau dia bukan jodoh aku, maka memang bukan lah tu,

Mungkin memang dia yang aku suka,

Tapi tak semua yang diimpikan dapat dimiliki.

Selama dalam ingatan aku,

Dia seorang lelaki yang baik,

Aku sedar bila aku kawan dengan dia,

Dia layan aku baik-baik,

Buat aku rasa aku patut berperangai lebih seperti seorang wanita,

Bukan seperti layanan yang selalu aku terima dari kawan-kawan aku,
Kalau kawan aku, hm,
Layan aku,

Seakan-akan aku seorang lelaki,
Mungkin sebab aku belajar taekwondo kot,
Sebab tu kawan-kawan aku layan aku kasar-kasar,

Memang proses nak berubah, tu memakan masa yang lama,
Maklumlah, mostly kawan aku yang rapat sebelum ni pun semuanya lelaki.
Dan aku tak perlu jaga hati dorang ni sangat,
Nak gaduh ke,
Nak jalan dulu tinggalkan dorang ke,
Buat panas hati ke, bagi penyepak satu ke,
Tak perlu nak kisahkan sangat,
Hm, lelaki kan. Hahaha
Dan itu buat aku rasa janggal nak bergaul dengan kawan perempuan.
Sebab aku sendiri rasa,
Hati perempuan ni sukar nak jaga.
Senang nak terasa hati.
Senang rasa tersisih.
Dan banyak lagi lah.
Tapi, sejak aku ada dua tiga orang kawan perempuan masa tu,
Aku faham boleh faham sikit-sikit hidup ni macamana.
One way leads to another choice of ways.
Aku rasa aku banyak dah berubah.
Suara maybe dah tak selantang dulu.
Yalah, dulu kena kritik pasal suara kuat sangat kan.
Jalan pun dah lebih perlahan dari yang dulu.
Bukan lagi laju macam LRT,
Dan secara automatik pun, berat aku naik.
Oh ok. hahaha

Apa pun, aku rasa.
Aku hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan ja selama ni.
Ya, Itu yang aku yakin pasti.
Sebab, I just got the feeling that he no longer interested to talk to me anymore.
And I think I understand that sign of conversation.
I think I need to delete his phone number from my smartphone.
But I don't know why,
I still can't do it.
Maybe I will keep his phone number until the day,
Either he got married or me got married,
Then, at that time I will delete his phone number for sure.
But,
I wish I don't have to delete his number,
If he's gonna be mine after all, right?
Hahahahaha. Okay,
Amal, you're dreaming right?!
Yes, only in your dream la kali, mal.

Okay, lets live a life, mal.

My 19 October 2014

Assalamualaikum W.B.T / Annyeonghaseyo.

My second sister just called me at 9.35 am which wake me up from sleeping. She expect me going home this mid semester break, because my young brother and her are coming home for this mid semester break. I told her that I didn't going back to Sabah for this mid semester break. I didn't even open the air asia web page to look up for ticket. I decided to going back at the end of this semester, Insya-Allah.

So, I wake up, went to the living room with my laptop. Here I go again.

This time, was my exactly Catia Assignment. 4 Figures need to draw.

Question 1: Figure T6.5

As I saw straight line and rectangle shape, one word came out on my mind 'OFFSET'!

This will be a lot of offset line.

One of my lecturer commented as he saw my drawing progress,

"Banyaknya line Amal."

and I just smile without looking back. 

I'm just too immersed into this. 

HAhahaha

Step 1.

Let's start with the Sketcher.

I choose black color for the background with grid line. 

Step 2.

→Starting with select the zx plane one the specification tree then click 'Sketcher' icon.

[I'm not familiar with constructing line according to Vertical and Horizontal point s drawing, so actually I start with drawing a rectangle shape and offset those line until I got the intersection line. ]

→Remove all the aid lines so it will be looks like this.

Step 3.

→Got the zx plane view shape, click 'Exit Workbench' icon.

→Click the zx plane (the Sketch.1).

→Click 'Pad' icon until 'Pad Definition' pop up.

→Type: Dimension.

→Length : 42 mm

→Selection : Sketch.1

→Click 'Preview' then 'OK'.

Step 4.

→After pad operation, it will appear like this.
→Don't confuse with the 3 stripe white color, it because I forgot to turn of the lighting effect.
→So, I select the yz pad plane as shown in figure below then click 'Sketcher' icon.

Step 5.

→Entering sketcher, the plane will faced like this.
→By using aids from the offset lines, I drew the rectangle shape [red line].
→Click 'Exit workbench' icon.

Step 6.

→Click the 'Pocket' icon until the 'Pocket Definition' table pop up.
→Type: Dimension
→Depth: 10mm
→Selection: Sketch.2
→Click 'OK'.

Step 7.

→Repeat Step 4, 5, and 6 at the other side.

[Mr. Fendi had thought me how to do the mirror by using a plane, 

but suddenly, I forgot already the actual steps, so I just do it like this. If anyone have a better way to do this, I gladly appreciate it. =) ]

→Select the pad plane as shown below and click 'Sketcher' icon.

Step 8.

→Entering the sketcher, it may faced like this.
→The yellow lines are Offset line just find the middle.
→I drew the circle at the center with diameter of 10 mm.

[Oh ya! I'm not really sure about this, but as shown at the question. It stated that 'Through Hole 20 Diameter. Maybe it should be done by 'Hole' method, but yeah, I not quite sure how it works, so I just used 'Pocket' method.] So, this is how it looks after the pocket operation.

Step 9.

I just want to view this with another option,

so I select the 'Shading with edges and hidden edges' view. 

It's clearly show us the hidden drawing.

Step 10.(Extra but not so important) =D

→ Color: Red and white.

→Lighting: On

→ Just another classy finishing kunun. Ha3. Chill bro.

Xie Xie

Syukran

Arigato Gozaimasu

Kamsahamnida

Terima Kasih

Thank You

 for reading and judging? perhaps? hehehe

Alhamdulillah.

p/s: Have any suggestion? Just drop your comment below. I might consider it with calm and passion. Kunun. hehehe

My 18 October 2014

Alhamdulillah, it's mid semester break.

Yet, it doesn't mean that me as a student may enjoy it like a honeymoon without assignments, tutorials, lab reports, and not to forget the list of mid semester test are waiting a head as soon as the mid semester break is over.

So, I began with my CAD's assignment.

My lecturers gave us 10 pieces of diagrams, 6 of it were our tutorial which should be done during class and another 4 pieces are our assignment.

Alhamdulillah, I had finished drawing 5 of 6 during the class session.

So, this would be the 6th diagram drawing session 

which I proceed at Kolej Kediaman Wang Ulu, Kangar, Perlis.

6th Drawing : Figure T5.12

Step 1.

Open Catia V5R16 

I used Part Design under Mechanical.

Step 2.

→Select the zx plane on the specification tree on the left side.

→Click the sketcher icon.

→ Draw the box with it's  width and height.

→ Oh! I used offset line to the the middle.

→Then, yes offset line again and again to get the intersection point. I just know the advantages of offset this semester. I never familiar with offset when I was learning Autodesk Inventor in my diploma at semester 5 (if I not mistaken) or AutoCAD during at degree semester 1.

→ Got the intersection point, I drew a new line based on it. Then remove all the offset line. So, This is how it's look like.

Step 3.

→After I got the shape on zx plane. 

→Click the icon 'Exit Workbench'.

→Click the 'Pad' icon.

→Select the sketch on zx plane until the 'Pad Definition' pop up.

→The diagram shown thickness in 40 mm, I wrote 40mm in the 'Length:' blank box.

→Likely, I prefer the pad went backward, so I clicked the 'Reverse Direction'.

→Then, click on 'Preview' to see how is it looks like.

Step 4.

→Select the xy plane on the specification tree.

→Draw the box, I used the offset method.

Step 5.

→Click 'Exit workbench'.

→Click 'Pocket' icon (the orange icon as shown below) until the 'Pocket Definition' table pop up.

→Type: Dimension.

→Depth : 18 mm

→Selection: Sketch 4 ( the box)

→Then, click 'Preview' to view the effect of pocket operation.

Step 6.

→This is how it supposed to be done.

→Then, select the pad as shown in the figure below.

Step 7.

→ Select the pad and click 'Sketch' icon.

Step 8.

→On the pad plane, draw a box shape.

→Click 'Exit Workbench' icon.

→ Click 'Pocket' icon, until the 'Pocket Definition' table pop up.

→Type: Dimension.

→Depth : 100 mm

→ Selection : Sketch.5 (the box shape)

→ Click 'Preview' to preview the effect after pocket operation.

→ Then, click 'OK'.

Step 9.

→ Then, tadaaaaa~

→It should be looks like this.

Step 10. (Extra option)

♥As my lecturer shown this function of coloring.

♥So, why not I applied it together in this drawing.

♥It because my lecturer encouraged us to play and used all the function in the CATIA software.

♥So, this feels like playing game.

♥I don't think I was studying or working at all.

♥Maybe, because I know how to do it? and it's quite fun?

♥I don't know or realize how long I spend my time to do only this figure T5.12.

♥Because sometimes, I found its quite confusing and hard to find a way to do the certain part,

but still, keep trying.

♥So, the final appearance of the Figure T5.12 is like this.

(^______^)v

Anyway, there are a lot ways can be used to draw this figure. 

This is the only way that I know how to do it.

It anyone have suggestion to do this better or improve my step in advance.

[Anything comment about grammar also can do. hehehe]

Just drop your comment okay.

I gladly appreciate it. ^____^

Thanks for reading.

P/s: I'm still a beginner and new to CATIA. So, don't ask me about the comparison of CATIA and other product or asking the advanced function of CATIA. Honestly, I don't know. I just spilled out here what I understand during my CATIA class lesson. Oh ya, I'm still weak at tangent though. =D

My 4 October 2014

Di sana sini,

Status para facebookers,

Mesej whatssapian,

Masuk menaik di paparan dinding maya,

Tertera naik menaik seperti tangga di ruang sembang,

Alhamdulillah, 

Setelah 3 minggu lebih,

Tenggelam timbul di sebalik deretan tugasan, laporan, kuliah, dan kuiz,

Mereka selamat sampai di kampung halaman,

Berpeluang meluangkan masa bersama keluarga,

Mungkin lebih meriah dari hari sebelumnya.

Aku yang hanya tahu rasa rindu dan menyayangi,

Setelah berjauhan dengan keluarga dan teman tersayang,

Mungkin cara ini lebih baik buatku,

Kerana rasa rindu dan sayang itu bagai hilang ditiup angin,

Ianya berganti bahagia bila aku bertemu mereka,

Kadang bila bahagia mengaburi mata dan hati,

Rasa penghargaan itu berkurangan,

Dan kurang,

Jauh bezanya bila berjauhan.

Unik bila rasa itu seperti malam dan siang,

silih berganti gelap dan terang,

(tersengih)

Aku di sini,

Hanya suara mereka jadi pengubat hati yang penat,

Hanya gambar mereka jadi jadi lakaran senyuman tawa,

Hanya video lagak mereka jadi hiburan,

Hanya kata-kata mereka jadi simpulan kekuatan,

Aku dan perasaan yang malu untuk diungkapkan dalam kata kpd mereka,

Sayang, Rindu, dan ingat aku di sini.

(senyum sampai nampak gigi kuningku)